Tuesday, September 29, 2009
This Is My Life
I am amazed as I write these words… I have not shed a tear in roughly 72 hours. Yep, you read it correctly – I’ve been tear free for three days! I feel as though this is some sort of monumental accomplishment. I wouldn’t exactly say that I have moved toward acceptance, but I am definitely working toward a level of understanding. As crazy as it may sound, in part I think some of this came from the acquisition of her pictures. Until I saw the pictures of the two of them together, there was honestly a part of me that still believed it wasn’t true. I realize this sounds odd considering I had seen instant messages between the two of them and he had confessed. However, there was just something so concrete about seeing the two of them, photographed together for all eternity with their faces cheek to cheek, which made me realize this is not a dream. I am not going to wake up from this. My husband and I, along with our friends and family aren’t going to be laughing about this later. Although this is not at all what I had planned, this is real; this is my life.
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I am so proud of you... for keeping track of all of your feelings. For being so strong, for not crying for 72 hours, for taking it one day at a time, for understanding that it's okay to be sangry, and for picking yourself up and putting one foot in front of the other each day!
ReplyDeleteThat's all you can do... move forward little by little. Some days will be easy and some days will be difficult.
But through it all .... you have friends and family! Keep your chin up!
SJ
Thinking of you. So glad you started this blog when you did.
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