A week ago today a bomb exploded and my world came crashing down. As I sit here looking around at the shards of my broken life, I can't help but wish that life were like the movies...
If life were like the movies I would walk in and quit my job tomorrow because I can no longer be the "super teacher" that I prided myself on being. I would fly down to Florida and sit on the beach with my toes in the Gulf of Mexico. Then I would get a job as a character at Disney World!
If life were like the movies I would make my husband, as well as her, both wear scarlet letters. Or better yet, get a scarlet letter tattooed on their foreheads! The two of them would have to walk around with all the the world knowing what they have done.
If life were like the movies I really would have cut the crotch out of all my husband's pants, rather than just threatening to do so! I would have thrown all of his things out into the driveway and changed the locks to our house. I would have kicked him to the curb and never looked back.
If life were like the movies I would go have martinis with my friends. We would talk about what a fool my husband is... that he just lost the best thing in his life and he doesn't even know it. Then we would have a "good riddance" toast to him.
If life were like the movies I wouldn't hurt like this; I wouldn't cry like this. I wouldn't feel like I am dying.
If life were like the movies, everything would be okay.
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I will storm the Heavens for you and your husband. God Bless you for sharing your feelings, I think it is good for you and good for your marriage. You are AMAZING and a true witness of the Christian marriage. Our call in marriage is to lead the other to Heaven. You continue to do that by not giving up, you are being a great wife. Contiune to show your hubby the way of God, because GOD can make him better. We all fall away at times, there is hope for the man you feel in love with, and hope for your life together. I promise you I will not stop praying. I feel called to promise you this, know I will stay true to it!!
ReplyDeleteThis is so true! although i do not no what
ReplyDeleteits lik to hav to go through loosing
your true love whos your husband...but i do kno wat its lik having parents
fite all the time wen they
went through a devorce..although this is
not the same thing i kno that u hav to
stay strong through thick and thin
and good and bad!! Soo hunny i hope
that he gets wat her dezerves
u are the best thing that has ever
happened to
him an he jus throws you away
i kno that u can do soo mch better than him and u deserve it to!!
Soo keep ur chin up!!
I love you..
kj