My Superhero Mother-in-law

As far as I know, my husband's family does not know any of this is happening. I have never been close to them, which has always bothered me. In the nine years that I have known them, they have never hugged me or told me they loved, not even on our wedding day. However, my husband is not close to them either. I have never seen them hug him or tell him they love him, and even though I know that they love us both very much, it breaks my heart that they don't show affection. Despite all of this, I have always liked his mother very, very much and in many ways see characteristics of her in my husband. I give you this background because I have been thinking about my mother-in-law for days now and as I sit here I am consumed by thoughts of wanting to speak to this woman. Perhaps it is because my husband is so much like her and I feel that by speaking to her I would somehow be speaking to him - the person I want to speak to most in the world, but who bristles when I am even in the same room as him. I want to cry with my mother-in-law and have her wrap her arms around me and hold me and tell me everything will be okay. I want her to say that she loves me like she would her own daughter and that regardless of everything that is happening, she knows that her son loves me too. I truly would give anything right now just to have the comfort of hearing her voice. I had a dream about her last night and in my dream this is what happened - she was hugging me and reassuring me, telling me that this road out of Hell would be long and hard but that we would make it and everything would eventually be okay. She said he and I would come out of this and that our relationship would be better and stronger than it ever had been before. I trusted her and believed what she was saying, knowing it was the truth because she is his mother and mothers are superheros who can fix anything. My superhero mother-in-law was saving the day... and then I woke up.