Sassy Song Sunday: Gives You Hell by The All-American Rejects

Today’s song is Gives You Hell by The All-American Rejects. Living with Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex is getting more and more exasperating (as if that weren’t obvious by my recent posts). However, trying to be an optimist (while staying true to the passive-aggressive girl that I am, LOL ~ at least I can admit it) I have chosen to embrace this song as my new anthem of sorts.

The Thin Line between Love and Hate

I have often heard people say that there is a thin line between love and hate but I never really understood what that meant until now. It was six months and two days ago when this journey began. Besides being utterly shell-shocked, I can honestly say that when I started this blog I was truly in love with Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex and wanted more than anything to make our marriage work. I remember all the times I sat, tears streaming down my face, blogging my heart out about these feelings and pleading with all of you to pray that he and I would find our way back to each other. Now, I don’t even know that person whom I used to be. In fact, sitting here now I am actually wondering - what the hell was I thinking?

I no longer see whatever it was that originally attracted me to Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex. He is truly like some kind of alien. He no longer acts like the person I knew. He speaks differently, he looks differently, and he even likes things which are polar opposite of things he used to like. In fact, some of the things he now likes are things that he once mocked (case in point, you should see the house that he recently bought in the town were he works!). The funny thing is I can deal with all of this because in all honesty it does nothing but solidifies the fact that the demise of our marriage was the BEST thing that has ever happened to me. (Praise God for His infinite wisdom!)

The thing I can’t deal with; however, is how ass-ish (yes, I just made up that word) Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex has become. He has yet to take responsibility for his actions, he has little regard for anyone but himself, and he is one of the most stubborn individuals I have ever met. I swear, he knows how to get under my skin and I truly believe that he goes out of his way to do those things. Seriously, WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING!?!?!

Witty Words Wednesday #9

"When you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on."

~ Franklin D. Roosevelt

OUCH!!

I am a klutz, plain and simple. Last Monday evening (President’s Day), after a wonderful three-day weekend, I slipped on my socked feet and fell down New Guy’s stairs. To his credit, New Guy came running to my aid and found me sprawled on the stairs half laughing at my clumsiness and half tearing up in pain. Unlike my usual falls (and trust me, I fall often), the pain in my bum did not get better and in fact, it’s still pretty consistent. My vast research (thank you Web MD) has led me to believe that I have either severely bruised, or even worse - actually broken my tailbone. I have tried icing my bum, as well as sitting on one of those donut things. Both help a little, but not tremendously. The absolute worst pain is when I go from a sitting to standing position – OUCH!! Who knew turning 30 would be so hard on my body?

Unannounced Hiatus

I apologize for my unannounced hiatus this past week ~ not to worry, all is well! I have been busy this past week with some family issues, as well as report card writing. Here are some updates on the major facet of my life:

New Guy
Things with New Guy are going great! We continue to see each other every weekend and, I have to say the roughly 48 hours that we are together goes by much too fast. I could go on and on about what a great guy he is, but I don’t want to embarrass him. I will say this ~ he truly is an amazingly wonderful man who treats me in a way which I have never been treated. I am so thankful for everything that has happened which brought me to this point and feel blessed that New Guy came into my life.

Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex
A proposed final divorce decree was drafted by my attorney and sent to Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex’s attorney on Friday, February 12th. If he and his attorney agree then they sign it and return it to my attorney; he and I sign it and then in a nutshell it’s done. At this point we are still waiting to hear. I did ask Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex what the status was earlier tonight and he indicated that he had not yet been contacted by his attorney. In other news, we have started packing up the house with the hopes of getting it on the market by March 1st (which is also the new date I am hoping to be divorced by, lol!).

Sassy Song Sunday: According to You by Orianthi

This is not the song I had originally planned to post today; in fact, I had intended to post a sweet little love song for Valentine’s Day. However, after the week I have had with Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex I decided to save the love song and post this one instead. Today’s song is According to You by Orianthi. I feel like this song describes how Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex (the “You” in this song) and New Guy (the “Him” in this song) each see me. Thanks, Cortney, for sending it to me!

Witty Words Wednesday #8

“Were it not for hope the heart would break.”

~ Scottish Proverb

Meet the Parents

On Saturday I met New Guy’s parents, along with his brother and niece. I have to admit that I was pretty nervous meeting them, but truly they were the sweetest people. They were warm and engaging and it was obvious that they are a family that truly cares about one another. In some ways, they reminded me of my own family. When they left, his dad said to me, “Take good care of ‘New Guy’ but don’t feed him too much” (I love cooking and adore doing it for him ~ he has told his parents what a good cook I am). Before leaving his mom gave me a hug; yes, a hug! This is a really big deal to me, as I am a big hugger and in nine years of knowing me Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex’s mother never once gave me a hug - not even on my wedding day. As cheesy as it sounds, when New Guy’s mom hugged me it nearly brought tears to my eyes.

Sassy Song Sunday: Just Another Day in Paradise by Phil Vassar

Last weekend, when we were on our way to see Everclear, I was texting back and forth with one of my best friends, and former college roommates, Allison. I was telling her we were on our way to the concert and that I wished she was with us, as I knew we would be have so much fun. She texted back that she wished she was there too and that her “fun Friday night” involved going to Wal-Mart with her three-year-old to choose a gift for the birthday party she would be attending the next day. My text back to here was, “I would love to be doing that right now!” To which she responded, “I know, and I know someday you will.” It reminded me that back in college we went to a Phil Vassar concert and one of my favorite songs of his was Just Another Day in Paradise. I used to say that it described the life that I wanted… I guess I still feel that way.


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Super Human Strength

Every Tuesday my friend Julie and I have Girl’s Night, which generally (okay, always) involves wine. This week there was an “incident” when I opened the wine bottle, which clearly reveals my amazing super human strength…





Yep, I did all of that with a wine opener! And what are two gals to do, we clearly had to drink the whole bottle (never mind that it was the second one of the night) because there was no way to recork it. Fun times!

Witty Words Wednesday #7

“Sometimes God uses the pruning sheers, and sometimes He uses the chainsaw… I guess I needed the chainsaw this time.”

~ Anonymous

(Thanks, Paparazzimom, for sharing this!)

Tears of an Unknown Origin

Today I had a breakdown ~ my first in a very, very long time…

After school we had a baby shower for a coworker who is expecting her first child. As I sat there, watching her open her gifts, seeing our colleagues cut off pieces of string to match the size of her baby belly, and hearing that she and her hubby have chosen “my” baby name as the middle name for their new baby girl, an overwhelming feeling of sadness came over me. I actually had to get up and leave the room. I walked into my own classroom and sobbed, and the funny thing is I am not even sure why. When this ordeal began, I worried that I would never get remarried - that I would never have kids. If I still felt that way, my tears would make since; however, I honestly no longer have those worries. I am so happy about where my life is and the path that I am on and truly would hate to live out the dreams of babies and forever with Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex; yet that didn’t stop the tears from flowing. As I stood in my classroom crying, in walked my wonderful teammate (shout-out to you, Jan) who had left the shower to come check on me. As I hugged her, sobbing and babbling about how stupid I felt about crying she explained that I was going to have moments like this now that “the end” is near and that it was okay. As I think about it, I know she is right. Although I am so ready to close this chapter of my life, it’s odd to think that it will be over soon.

Dare I Say It?

In the state where I live there is a 90-day waiting period before couples can get a divorce. Our 90 days came and went in December. Why? Simply put, Soon-To-Be Mr. Ex and I could not agree on a settlement. The result of this was we were given a trial date of June. If we were able to settle before then we would, otherwise our divorce would go to trial and the settlement would be determined by a judge. Neither of us had a desire to drag thing out until June, yet we were unable to come to an agreement despite the number of times we tried to work things out. Tonight, however, we made a lot of progress and have come to a tentative settlement, which we typed up. We are both calling our attorneys tomorrow. Dare I say it? Is it possible that the official finality to our marriage is finally on the horizon? Hmmm… is it wrong to have a personal goal of being officially divorced by Valentine’s Day?